diamondly~LIPSY~

2011-10-14T10:38:00.002+08:00

Hello blog.

I know I have been repeating again and again on how long have it been since I post something on this blog.
So, I will not mention it again.

Yes, I missed this blog ALOT!
If my excitement last the whole day, I will change the layout of this blog today because I just hated the small space.
But we'll see.

There are many things that happened lately..

Alhamdulillah, currently I am in my 2nd year, 2nd semester.
That means, I will be in the 3rd year.
That is the last year early next year Insya'Allah.

Many things have improved, syukur, but whoa.. I have gained alot of weight!
I am no 55kg can you believe it?!

Well.., as long as I don't go out of shape and still maintaining my health, it's alright 'tho.

Another update will be that I have got myself a new job.
Still in united square, but this is growing up gifted.
I will soon be the second teacher(I guess) and the pay is not bad at all.
But the only issue is that the place is too cold for me!
OMGoodness seriously. It is really very cold.
Because of that, I feel very achy on my back.

Old friends still here, new friends still here except the boyfriends girlfriends are pfft.
Let's not talk about that.

I wanted to update about boyfriend's improvements but I am very worried about doing so.
I just hope that it is a permanent thing and not just for a short time.

Oh. Sis have changed boyfriend.
She seems happy. Well, although I do not fancy the idea of them gg into a relationship when they do not know each other that well enough, I really hope that he is not a bad choice afterall and that this is the right one so that they could move one step further insya'Allah..

Insya'Allah, my relationship with boyfriend will improve much more and may we move one step forward too.

-Erfa

& again..

2011-04-17T07:08:00.002+08:00

Yes, I have not been sleeping well again this past few..... DAys? Weeks? Im not sure.. Well.. THere's alot on my mind.. I also realised that If my sleeping hour goes haywire, my mind will too. But most times, I just couldn't stop myself. I couldn't help it. Actually, since sis change our beds position, I have been able to sleep quite well.. But they just have to watch that scary movie (actually not really the scary/ghost type).. But sadly, I was still scared. Since then, I was unable to sleep as well as before.. & now, my obsession in stalking forces me to do it again. Haha! Nono... Im ending it soon.. will be doing some confrontation to end everything.. I hope it works. You know.. When you get older, you just got tired with all these nonsense.. People bad-mouthed you and told their friends their side of story and their friends(note: just one-sided story) then just put oil to the fire.. *sounds wierd* Me?? Believe it or not, even though I hated that person, if they are pretty, I'll just say they're pretty. I mean.. Cummon... Face the fact. They are pretty with super cheap attitude.. What's so great about that? *khekhekhe* Seriously, I would tell my friends the whoooole story in order to get better advice. & seriously girls, growing up is tough. Stop being cheap. YOu're making it worst! *No link* -Erfa

2011-02-07T12:27:00.002+08:00

Been two months since the first day of 2011.
Remembering how sucky the 1st day was, I am scared.

I really hope it's not as bad as I thought it will be.
That one thing that could ruin everything.
Please don't happen.
Allah, aku mohon.

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Received a msg and didn't thought of conveying it.
I know this intention is bad, but I am so willing to be the bad girl.
Non of the past will be able to come back as long as i am in the present.
Afterall, it isn't that important for bf to be there.
So, Adios..

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Congratulations to cousin Yanti!
2nd one come so fast!
What's more, a pair!
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Well, that's about it.
For now.
-Erfa

2011-01-01T00:27:00.002+08:00

I can't believe my 1st post on 2011 will sound like this:

TODAY GAVE ME THE IDEA OF HOW SUCKY THIS YEAR GOING TO BE!
I hate you.

Im not picking up your calls!

2010-12-31T13:37:00.003+08:00

While everyone talking about 2011, whether they want 2010 to pass badly or not, renewing and editting or totally change their promises to themselves and/or loved ones, here I am thinking about my past.

2011 is coming in a few hours time.
So many years have past, but yet I feel as though Im still trying to bid the past goodbye.

This new year marks our (boyfriend and I) 3rd year of knowing each other, well.. & our 2nd year of being together; Insya'Allah.

Still, my new year resolution is to get our past off my back; Totally off our mind & hope it will stop haunting me. Well.. Us.

Same goes to my past.
I don't feel easy..
So here I am, hoping that the intended people stumbled upon this old boring blog of mine and read this post.

I would like to apologize to the people whom I have once knew, especially to the people who have once made me happy. & I have hurt them and/or their family in any way.

To you who tried to make us possible, and all I did was to make sure I avenge you for the things you did that have caused me hurt.
When I knew that Im in no position to do that.
I hold grudges. That is true.
That is bad enough but I just have to make it worst.

To you who tried to make us possible but I just don't find it possible, sorry for the hopes.

To you who I just don't fancy no matter what you do, I still don't.

To the people who have been my stopping points, knowing you people was a waste of time. Until now, im still asking myself why.

To the people who have once been my bestest people in my life.

Im sorry.
Forgive the things that have cauesd us hurt.
& I hope this helps me to forget.
I wish you happiness with nothing stopping you guys.

Because most of the people that have once made me happy, just because of the shits that happened, broke our relationship, I actually missed you guys.

People who thought they lost what they have because me, im just feeling sorry for you.
Well, yes you Nurul Sakinah.

For the people whom I hated,
Oh, I still hate you :)

NEXT!

For the people in my life right now,
I'll treasure you.
Other than boyfriend, family and some beloved cousins, I am unsure who else.
Bestfriends.. Are we THAT busy?

Parents, being your daughter for almost 22 years.... *CRICKETY SOUND*
Actually I didn't know what to say about that because I will always be your daughter no matter what and I am not afraid because neither any of us will throw any of us out of our lives. I know I will always cekik darah you few times every year, makes you angry, frust, irritated, smile, laugh and sure one day will cry one. All those mixed feelings.. So we rock. Cool.

Same goes to my siblings.

To sum it up..,

Family, I will always be the 'adik' in the family but acts like the 'kakak' ok? Because when kakak acts like the kakak, she will sound like 'makcik' instead.

Boyfriend, I will still stay true.
That you don't have to worry.
Thank you for trusting and loving me so much,
Thank you for transforming into a lovable homosephian.
aaaaaaaaaaand the list goes on.

My three lovable cousins.. Nurul Asqhiah, Fazlyanna and Miryanti.
I just wanna mention you guys.

Kiko, please don't die.. Im scared.

Bestfriends, WADDUP?!!!

Friends. Stay where you are!

Boyfriend's past, GET LOST! We don't need you to add drama to our life.
Because our lives rocks especially without you!

PS: Love my life *HeartHeart*

2010-12-20T23:58:00.003+08:00

OMG.
What is happening with my life right now?
2 weeks of holidays and im working for like almost one week. Wait. It is.. For 1 whole week!
Then I have camp.
& I have ye to revise for my 2nd UT for my 2nd sem!
Excluding all the complications in life!

How should people spend their holidays?
Getting involved in all the things in the world,
or do nothing for the whole day in so many days?

Guess I'll never see the beauty of anything if I keep on being this way.
Always find something too hectic or lame or whatever!

Oh. Anws, update for today.. Or maybe yesterday due to the fact the clock strikes 12am.
My friends and I actually went to camp 1 day before the actual day!
OMG!
How dumb can we be?!

& obviously, we dread of going to camp tomorrow!
URGH!
So lazy. But..... 5 points!
Cummon!!!!!
We can do it!
Only 1 night.
Hope it'll be a blast and we wldn't find it boring on the actual day.
Hope it's not a waste.

PS: Maybe I should just delete my Cbox to avoid virus spamming on my blog.

-ERFA

2010-11-25T13:30:00.002+08:00

Right now, at this very moment, everyone is cracking their brain trying to find information that was once too easy for them.

Comparing answers and disscussing the things that they are supposed to be doing.
Me, well..
Everything that was mentioned are new to me,
New terms new everything.
Or I just never bothered to look at it before.
To think I have to face all this now.

Well,
Even if you tried to run away from it all, it doesn't mean that it's not there.
So the only right thing to do is to face it.
Im facing it right now.
It's not good.
Not good at all.

2010-11-25T13:20:00.003+08:00

Everything went really well..

Until yesterday..
No, not us.
Some unwanted call from whoever we do not know.
Well, I do not know.
But I could guess who.
If he didn't do anything behind me anymore.

This is so tiring and I so do not need these unnecessary distractions!

Wait till I get to the bottom of this.
You Wait!

-Erfa

2010-11-20T00:51:00.002+08:00

PHEW!
Today was my 2nd TP..
Well,
Alhamdulillah..
I got it.
But I didn't feel the same sense of achievement that I felt when I passed my Theory test.

But when I saw the reaction from the people around me,
hati rasa tenang.. Senang..
I felt good.
Praise to god that I passed my TP.
Praise to god that I have wonderful people around me.

Also praise to god that this little achievement motivated them to take it up as well.

& I am sure touched by the comments made by them.
*LOVE*

Thank God.

& thank you parents..

-Erfa

2010-11-18T14:48:00.002+08:00

Financial accounting today and Im like not studying for it.
I know I should, but nothing coming in.
Plus, there's so much to do for a sleepy person.

Im still deciding on whether I should sleep in or parcialling.
Maybe I should still go school since tomorrow is not very stressful.

If it not stressful, I find it a waste not to come.
When it is a stressful module, Im so worried of skipping and find it difficult catching up.
In conclusion, I just find it a waste to skip school.

-.-"

Tomorrow will be my 2nd time trying to pass my TP.
I really hope that I'll be able to pull it through.
Ill be able to get it done and over with!

Oh my..
Please.

& I have to relax..
Not to make any mistakes that could cause me to get pinalise, immediate failure or too mujch mistakes until I was 'awarded' more than 18 points.

Breathe! Try to communicate and don't get distracted.

Be with me..
God.
Insya'Allah..

-Erfa

2010-11-15T14:45:00.002+08:00

More pressure on me..

She passed!
My cousin passed and why did I failed?
Make me even more stressed.
Thinking of it already made me damn nervous.

Her advice is to just remain calm.
Can I??
Of course I will try.
But Gosh this is nerve wrecking!

Pleaseee god...
Pleasepleasepleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..
I need to pass..

Kalamun Kaulammirrabbirrahim..!

-Erfa

2010-11-14T10:40:00.003+08:00

Oh. My. God!

Yesterday was sooo dramatic.

Me without my contacts on,
with heavy headache and 1st day wasn't helping.

Since my many years of working there,
never such thing happened before.

Everyone panicked and customer threatened calling the police.
Of course, she could do so,
but sorry to say that the police cannot do anything about it as everything settled.
They are just not satisfied.

Cummon.. Which lawyer threatened?
killing family?
For goodness sake!
You cannot do anything against us because it started off with your own mistake.
But you did threatened.

& everyone knows that threatening IS an offence.

Oh wells.
Im resting today.

Oh. practice at 4pm.
& tomorrow's exam gonna suck!

-ERFA

Change

2010-11-10T23:51:00.003+08:00

Change is indeed very scary.

I would proudly say that i was once that active girl who got involved in all the CCA's that I am interested in.
From uniform group to dance to red cross to netball.

All at once.

& once you stopped, it is very difficult to start it all over again.

Only then I realised the advantanges of getting involved in all those activities.
Other than being physically fit, I was mentally fit as well.
With good communication skills (of course, with lots of practice) and comfortable being with people.

Now that I've stopped and concentrated more on work, studies, family and boyfriend, I have lost touch in everything that I have once loved.

Of course, I would love to be involved again but I need to prioritise.

Now that I have becoming heavier each day,
I just do things, talk and think slower.
I don't have fun and fell sick often.

Well, you have to make sacrifice in order to gain something which is far more important in your life.

-ERFA

2010-11-08T15:06:00.002+08:00

Previous post was on the 1st day of school and now, it's already a month.
UT 1 is this week.
& im getting tired of sem 2.
How am I going to hold on for more months to come...?

Been not having enough rest for weeks!
school and work.
That is just not helping.
Money is never enough.

Sometimes I just feel like giving up.
It's like im not cut-out for all this.
But what can I do?
Im halfway through year 1 and have never and do not wish to do things halfway.

Relationship getting better..
Alhamdulillah.
Or maybe I just do not have time to find things out anymore.
I dunno.
I just hope not.

- Love -

2010-10-13T22:39:00.002+08:00

Semester 2 is here.
Yesterday was our 1st day of school.
Yesterday till this coming monday will be our first day of each module.
As there's 1 module each day.
I've already started to miss school on the 2nd day which is today and will be absent from school tomorrow.

Feedback from classmate that just now, Hospitality and Tourism Faci was very boring and it sucks.
Why must the facilitator of that module always sucks?
Tomorrow will be financial accounting, which im most worried of besides maths.

Oh ive just found out that tomorrow will be entrepreneurship and not financial accounting.
HAhah!

Okie Dokie..
I'll miss tomorrow then & catch through 6P!

& oh kiko..
I dreamt of you twice!

-Erfa

2010-10-06T02:10:00.003+08:00

Admit neglecting this blog as im too busy updating what I feel on the other.
Admit that I was really ver happy before this has to happen again.
Admit that I see no end to this.
Admit that I can never trust.
Admit that I may not find someone whom I can blissfully trust with peace and lead a very happy life.
Because we cant have everything we want.
When we thought we did, we will come to realise that it is not as perfect as we always thought it is.

-Erfa

2010-09-22T02:06:00.001+08:00

why must you suck so much?

Whatever.

2010-09-21T03:41:00.002+08:00

Its one of those nights when I feel motivated to type out something here but ended up having nothing to say; At all.

So I guess ill just be throwing any topic.
Which of course!
The tv show that I love.
"split ends"
Well the channel will just have no end but I cant possibly be sitting in front of the tv 24/7
Although ive set there like the whole day.
:X

Well it was about this 2 hairstylist which comes from a totally different background.
Both have their own regular customers.
1, a professional adult or maybe high-end hairdresser and another..
specialist for kids.
They had to switch places and work there for a week.
1 took it as a challenge, another well of course.. as an insult.

My understanding of the situation is that no matter how easy the challenge is or maybe you thought it is,
if you are not interested and just refused to adapt, you will find it really tough to connect with the things that you are set to do.
& it is going to be impossible especially if the people who are there gave up on you.
Words of encouragement and understanding is essential to make things happen.

It is manageable if you really try and nothing comes easy.

-Erfa

2010-09-19T01:09:00.003+08:00

It was his birthday yesteray and it stretches until today!

Guess I was the one getting all excited from the start.

He was pretty much relax.

It went pretty well. Wait. AWESOME!

It's better than I expected it to be!

Well, although it wasn't a good start.

Sucha disappointment.

But, it lasted for only half an hour and it got better and better after that!

Hmm.. Lets see..

Ive striked out most things that I have to do..

Left a few more.

Hope to be done before school reopens.

Aiya.. oKlah.

Abrupt ending

-Erfa

2010-09-17T12:06:00.002+08:00

My blog have been evolved from boring to crap.
But well, this is just to occupy my time.

Anyway, if it is not that obvious enough,
EXAMINATION IS OFFICIALLY OVER.
Like decades ago.
& I have another month for holiday!
Of course, I am a bummer.
Don't make good use of it.
I rested too much. Head weight a ton not yet the body.
Cummon.. What do you expect when the spirit got them low?

This year raya wasn't that tiring nor busy compared to any other year beacuse we were late on the 1st day. So they left us behind. Urgh.

Oh and because of my exam which is suck because I kept on worrying, but instead of studying, I try to settle the things in the house while worrying.
Thank you for helping erfa -.-"

Let us sidetrack abit..

Came across this phrase in facebook, it goes something like..
"what is yours will eventually be yours and what is not, no matter how hard you try will never be"

It is true to a certain extend, but because of my experience, I wldn't agree with what he's saying.
I mean this is definitely not about me, think Im just applying horn effect whenever it comes from him. Well anyway, for example, if you wanted to drive a car and you failed once, without trying again, you make it a point that you are not fated to drive in your entire life; because you believe that no matter how hard you try, you will never be able to pass.
So if you were to try again, does that mean you are desperate to pass??
I guess that depends and most of the time, it is determination and not desperation.
I know it may not be able to compare to whatever he is facing, but the concept is somehow similar i assume.

If it is about relationship, let me make my lovely bf as an example.
He did all the shits before.
He made mistakes.
I gave no room for chances.
But he tried.
For a year.
And try..
And waited.
I mean. we are just humans.
In love, you cannot decide to call a person desperate just because he is trying.
If you did, it just goes to show that you are too proud of yourself.
If you are talking about yourself, you cannot pull your ownself down and say you are desperate.
No one is desperate for love.
Everyone needs one.
You say need and not desperate.
Because love is not a thing and it is not an addiction that can be replace to just satisfy your desperation.
Appreciate love.
If one seems to be desperate, they may not be seeking for love.

-Erfa

2010-09-08T01:23:00.002+08:00

Things changes,

either better/worst.

Although confidence have been stepped and kicked farfar away by my body condition, I appreciated the things that happened.

& the things that i am looking forward to are going to be awesome.

Of course great challenges will be there, waiting to strike as well.

For now, examination on holidays, what's more hari raya are so irritatingly annoying.

To make it worst, insomnia strike almost everyday.

Well actually, it have been happening everyday.

Slept at like 5am and going to school for examination in the morning doesn't help.

Like at all.

Headache.

Well, after today, 2 more to go.

& that two is the 2 most annoying tough paper.

Crap.

It just have to stretch until hari raya.

-.-"

Oh well.

-Erfa

2010-09-04T04:51:00.002+08:00

Sleeping habits went from bad to worst.
I wouldn't mind if I won't have to go school.
Yeap.
Be opening in few days time.
Examination.

How I love the morning breeze.
& with him talking crap.
haha!

I love us like that.

2010-08-29T15:44:00.002+08:00

You know the feeling when you understand that you have to start revising and preparing your notes fast because of the shortage of time left but at the same time the feeling just wasnt there??
When you got distracted by nothing else.
But when the feelings are definitely there, there's always something that you have got to do first.
In the end, you ended up not revising nor preparing your notes.
& Just felt that the things that you have to revise just got longer than it have to.
You just instantly become lazier.

Haiz...
only 1 module is done. 4 more modules to prepare and revision not done at all.
Im officially dead.

Room is not done yet either.
Urgh.

Sidetrack please..

We've turned another month older now.
And still hanging on.
So many things happened in a day what else months.
The one thing for sure is LOVE.

2010-08-25T00:21:00.002+08:00

Carlsberg ride's over and now..
Moderate.
Which is good at times.

What should I do?
Study of course.
Lets concentrate on one first for now.
Maybe start tomorrow.
Oh I kept on procrastinating.

Well..
Now that laptop is well and all back on its feet,
I guess it's all depends on me.

All you have got to do is try your best and even though the result might be bad,
well at least you know you have tried and so there will be no room for regrets.
Of course you'd wish you would have done better..

Hmm..
Try again perhaps?
Well at least now, on the second try,
You know what you have to improve on.

Love>> Erfa

2010-08-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

So friday the 13th was the last day of school!

Soon will be end of Sem 1..!

15 weeks used up just like that.

Sem 2 modules.. URGH!

15 weeks of hell.. Well, I hope Im wrong.

Big day, Big day..!

Insya'Allah..

Update soon!!

-Erfa

2010-08-07T01:47:00.002+08:00

I love you no matter what.

Sound cheesy?
Funny when we trust lies so readily and doubt the truth?

Let it be my secret. At least from him.
Sealed it well, with no holes for little clues.

2010-08-06T03:06:00.001+08:00

I don't like that one bit.
Not at all.

Sometimes I hope I could sleep and live in my sweetdreams.

Done and over with

2010-08-04T13:49:00.003+08:00

Now, I just couldn't wait to just get everything done once and for all.
Spent alot of money and wouldn't wanna continue going all stressed out anymore.

2 more weeks.
Just another 2 freaking more weeks to go!

For now, I'll hang on..
Persevere.
Aim is to experience it once and no more!

Please..
Allah.
:)

-Erfa

2010-08-01T02:25:00.005+08:00

Have you stopped to smell the air??

There's love!

One of the many reason for me to love Ramadhan is late night and music.

Feel so in love!

Not that it's Ramadhan already..

Bf came down to Geylang to say Hi before he left for his part time job.

He's officially addicted.

Sadly not to me, but his work.

Stop working alreADY!

Because we took so long to choose the stuff, he dropped the idea of grabbing late lunch together

That's obviously insufficient!

But thank you..

On the Bright side, Just bought jewelleries for RAYA! Hahhaa!

&& Mum bought me this anklet that I have been dreaming of for YEARS!

It's not as awesome as I imagined it to be, but sure very happy seeing it!

Indeed a surprise!

THANK YOU IBU!

I love it!

Hate

2010-07-23T13:21:00.004+08:00

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you style your hair
I hate the way you kiss my hand, I hate it when you stare
I hate your big dumb hug and the way you stop and smile.
I hate you so much and it makes me sick, it make me think a mile.
I hate the way you're always right, I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worst when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
Not even close,
Not even a little bit
NOT EVEN AT ALL!!

I love you.

-Erfa

2010-07-20T19:11:00.002+08:00

Nowadays the problems that they state really make us think.
Alot.
It does not have any guidelines and simple things seems difficult.
But we did pretty well.. Infact, our facilitators claimed that we are the best team today!

Everything going on pretty well for me so far.
Sometimes, when it went too well, too smooth,
it just feel as though it is too good to be true.
Why can't I just relax and convince myself?
The possibility are all to slim to happen.

Past is past.
I want to breathe and leave everything behind to start anew.
Now that I finally got it, I still doubt everything.

PS: I should stop thinking too much. Seeing what's not there. Slow down. That is what I have to do. Be a human.

26 june 2010

2010-07-14T12:13:00.003+08:00

7th months was *stars* *stars* *stars*
Stated part of the memorise down in another site.
It's obvious that I do not like to repeat.

PS: Watch for my belated birthday present!

&& riverside dinner for 7th month!

Lovelylovelylovely.

So lets talk about....................................
Today??

It's been so long since I experienced those pain.
Here I am turning back tk my hot milo.

I remembered the 1st time I drank this milo.
It refreshes my memory..
When I was working in I.S.T the place which allows me to drink it everyday without fail.
Be it in the morning, noon or afternoon.

A few cups each day.
It was 'refreshing' and no stomach ache involved.
Too bad when I drank it in school, stomach ache was involved.
But today, I have no other choice.
It's killing me!

Popped 2 panadol and it pain like hell.
Until I forced myself to eat the hot Mee Rebus which wasn't tasty and this milo.

Now very comfortable..
Love warm feeling.

*love* *love*

&&

Science-biology..
Why polar and non-polar involved!
Haiya!

OKie.
Looking forward to go home AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

S.L.E.E.P

Tata,
Oh.
And study for tomorrow's UT

Like again.

=.=

-Erfa

Birthday party

2010-07-01T12:01:00.007+08:00

Syabil's 11th- My 3rd project tryout

It was great, It was fun!

Everything went smoothly and alhamdulillah.

& I was returning a favour.

After this princess theme??

Ooooo noo...

Im tired of doing things for free!

-Erfa

All good stuff

2010-06-28T09:51:00.002+08:00

It was our 7th months..
As usual, the day before quarrelled, the day itself still quarrelled.
-.-

It got better after he did something to put everything into place.
It was awesome..
Tho' at first I was in doubt and was not happy about everything at all.
& I received my late prezzie at the same time!

Thank you sweets.

It was cute when you tried to be romantic.
HAha!

Ok.

My recent 'project'?
Syabil's 11th birthday party.
The theme??
PIRATES!
Although the decoration was not complete, it was still ok for a small party like yesterday.
:)
It was another success.
Praises to Allah :)

Pictures will be uplaoded when I have decided on the pictures :P

-Erfa

21st Birthday

2010-06-25T11:27:00.009+08:00

That are some of the pictures that being taken on that day..

Everything else?? On facebook.

Everythingeverything else??

Different cameras.

HAhahhaa!

Im actually trying to get a full-clear-view of the deco, but there wasn't any professional cameraperson lah.

So.. this is the best that I can get.

It was awesome!

Thank you everyone for coming, helping and prezzies!

MUAH!

-Erfa

2010-06-19T01:07:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was karate kid.

It was awesome!

Well, he never failed to spoil my day and picked me up again.

-,-

It was ok.

A very short meetup.

Today, for the 1st time in RP life,

I SKIPPED SCHOOL!

Mum forced me to go see doctor to get MC. Spent so much on something I don't need for what..

Haiz.. Worry for no reason.

& I was supposed to be on a long weekend if not for the stupid teambuilding thinggy.

It better be fun or I'll skip everything that got to do with it in the future!

PS: Things getting seriously good :) But still be on my guard.

-Erfa

Motivation

2010-06-17T12:29:00.003+08:00

Cognitive pulled me up after that damned bad fall from Maths and Science.

Maths is oh so predictable (Just passed).

Couldn't believe my science! To think I liked it. But then again.. There was Chemistry.

So.. Yah. Only a + added to it compared to Maths.

Not much of a difference :(

Although there was Physics yesterday, I think it was okie-dokie fun!

Yes, it was damn complicated, but I find it interesting! Very interesting.

PLeasePLease be kind enuf to close one eye on me not being able to answer that half part of the question!~

SO, soso.....

Cognitive surprised me big time!

I was not able to finish so many questions!

LuckieLookie~!

Classmate just came back from Germany.

& I ate too much chocolate!!

Lady bugggggggg!

~Skipped lunch~

Thursday=Movie date!

-Erfa

Nice

2010-06-15T21:39:00.003+08:00

It's nice to type on my lappy.
It's nice to hear the crunchy sound of my keyboard.
It should not have any sound, but I purposely typed loudly to hear the crunchcrunch sound.
Heh.

Test here, test there.. Test is just everywhere.
I know I could not possibly score better with my performance, but regret ley... HEh.
Yeah..

Anyway, my 21st.
Turned out to be FUNFUNFUN!
Hehe..
Oh yeah. Oh yeah!!

Boyfriend surprised me.
He made me got all upset over everything and there he is..
TSK!
Penat tau sakit hati~!
Sleep over lagi.. :)

LOtsLotsLOtsa things to say..
BUT!
Let's not state everything here.

LOVELOVE

-ERFA

2010-06-10T16:36:00.002+08:00

It's just tomorrow..

How will it turned up??

Updates?

Everything is good.

Doubts here and there, but nothing seems to be caught red-handed.

Hope it's just because nothing bad is going on.

Let's just hope so.

-ERFA

HOTHOT NEWS!!!

2010-05-27T14:28:00.002+08:00

What is so hot about the news?!!

After few weeks... Of schooling,

FINALLY TODAY IS THE LAST DAY!!!

Well.. 1st short break!

But than again, a break is still a break!

Unless if I started feeling insecure again and started working to prepare myself for emergencies.

Will be calling Mrs Sims again..

Which I don't think she can make it.

Holiday mahhhh.

Another hotHOT news is...

Understanding Test 1 is oooooooooooooooooooVA~!

Which I think I did badly.. :=(

Well, lets be merry for now.

Its done means it is done.

10 more weeks with W46J..

After that??

OllllllllllllLLLLLLLL over again.

Sian lah..

Now??

Busybiisieeee preparing..

Hope everything goes well..

Yes, lets hope so. Spent so much.. Will put in more effort.

But just felt everything is not enough~!

We'll see.

-ERFA

Mess

2010-05-13T09:58:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a mess.
I felt bad.
Told me you have tried your best?
Then best is not good enough.
.........................
Yes, I am struggling.
I have enough problems with Elementary Maths, why must Additional Maths be added to it?!
My life is miserable enough..
Please..
Can I just flung this one module??
AGAIN.

-Erfa

After 24 hour

2010-05-12T11:18:00.002+08:00

Science Faci changed!

Although the way they speak are damn similar,

but this one is alot more better..

Alotlot more better..

At least this faci made an introduction and didn't take things personally.

Tho' i pick up whatever she speaks slower, at least I understood her.

No more C's I hope.

................................................

After 24 hour, you came back.

If I were to put it crudely, 'Pleading' will be the best word.

& I instantly felt better.

But, I wouldn't give in too quickly.

There isn't any 'sorry'

Maybe because you know it is often being said but still, things repeats.

Maybe because you thought it won't do much.

But did you ever make an effort to think deeper?

Guess not.

-Erfa

2010-05-10T23:50:00.001+08:00

woohoo..
Faci took my answer as the model answer..
Proud or what.

That's all.

-Erfa

Maths cause us brain cancer!

2010-05-06T14:25:00.002+08:00

It was proven that Maths causes brain cancer.
Scientist said that Maths contains a molecule called mimathcellulous that could anger people and made people think too much causing them to have brain cancer.
Therefore, it should be banned in school especially because the damange starts from young.

By Scientist Erfa

Wahahahaa! I know right.. Crap.

Hate maths lah!
BellyBelly much!

Make me wanna shout out loud!
Invite headache & white hair only.

Oh.
Im officially on twitter!
Yeayea... I know.. A bit to late.
No intention of joining in the 1st place,
Just so bored and searching for entertainment cannot meh..
...............................................

another.
Yesterday.
I officially hate bf's bestfriend.
I know.. Bf stucked in between.
& like what he said, That stupid guy don't even know anything about us.
About me especially. & about him when he's with me.

So, if that pathetic guy wanna go green eyed, envious or watever shit,
Go lah.
Not going to affect me..
You cannot do anything to me anyway dammit.

Saying sorry after that will not be able to change anything lah!
Ohwell. WHAT evaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
.....................................

Tomorrow ada UT dry run people!
Seriously.. The purpose of science and maths are to make life easier for us if we wanted to go to Uni.
Can skip some module or something.
Well in my opinion, I think they should only make it optional..
Only for people who wanted to go to Uni.
Because if people like me who didn't wanna go Uni could drop that 2 subject, 1 year is saved!
Education in poly will only be 2 years!
....................................

Going out with GFs!
Well, except Farhana..
She didn't even say 'hi' so... Yah.
Wendy msged!
and we're free!
Heheheheehehhee..

................................................
Bf's 1st day is today!
Wonder how he's doing...

Ps: My maths teacher is the coolest because she wore Barbie shirt to class today!~

-Erfa

Lasagna + Tinted Visor~!

2010-05-04T10:33:00.004+08:00

I was hungry and boyfriend bought me lasagna!

After so long craving for it, finally got to nomnomnom on it! *LOVES*

Hmm..

Loves, he will not be working until 6th.

Hate because fulltime starting soon.

Once a month meetup maybe?

Blurgh!

Aching all over and started to feel that class is damn draggy..

Worksheets are exceptionally longggggggggggggggg!

Faci is talking, my head is exxploding, fingers are typing.

Eye is veryveryVERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY rebellious today.

Headache lahr!
Maybe should eat very soon.

Or should I sleep??

Think eat and buy some snacks to nibble on the 3rd meeting..

OMG! Haha!

I accidentally blurt out something (more to just sound)

& faci thought im answering her question and say out my name to ask what is it that I mentioned.

Suddenly was damn awake!

HAhahaa!

Stupid things you do when you are sleepy..

Hashio..

Oh well..

My goal for today?

Home straight to sleep!

*Snore*

PS: I have many scars on my body! Ironing sucks!

-Erfa

Long John Silver love

2010-04-27T21:00:00.003+08:00

Yup..

Never knew you could somehow get internet connection in Long John.

Yes, there isn't any.

Just somehow.

Hahaha!

Maybe causeway point by any chance?

Seriously, I have no idea..

But this is the 2nd time.

Many sure was glad when we finally stepped outta the fastfood restaurant.

Hahaha!

Well..

It's been days..

I have been spending my allowance money on things rather than food.

Well it's alright personally.. Just that it is unhealthy..

& I have not been going to my driving lesson for weeks!

Since school started.

Haiz.

Not that I didn't want to..

For IG,

Maybe I will not join any except Jive and Storm..

Hmm....

Nothing to do after school..

Boyfriend will be really busy after this.

:-(

SlackSlackSlack..!!

Oh wells.

PS: Always sleepy

-Erfa

You are what you think you are.

2010-04-23T23:57:00.005+08:00

I was right.
About maths.
My very 1st C.
& the comments sucks.
Where can I find help?
My UT is at stake.

I love Organisational Behavior.

So much.
Very positive remarks from Faci and I can foresee our grade :)
Proudly say the best ever.
Glad to be in the team as well.
I can just say that we worry for nothing because understanding and applying it are more important.
Now, our self-esteem and self-efficacy about this module is High.
Just keep it at high and not higher.
This post results from:
* Prior experience
* Behavior models
* Persuasion from others
* Assessment of physical/emotional states.

Yup, I would say all four!

Lets see what's tomorrow will be like.

OOpz.. Working.
It's saturday.
Dammit.

My favourite snap for now.
(The 2nd snap of different picture)

Label: Multi-racial

PS: Faci positive attitude and encouragement influence us as students. Thanks Paul.

-Erfa

2010-04-22T21:17:00.003+08:00

.TROUBLE.

I got my 1st B grade for Problem Solving module.
I know.. That is sad.
& the problem lies in the teamwork. (comments from Faci)
Guess I should encourage my team members to take on the questions given as well as contribute on giving questions to other team members.

To think I could score straight A's after receiving 2 of it.
And I can see Im going down.
Motivational level going lower and lower.

I don't see any future in science module because we didn't participate and it's clear that we are not satisfied on that day.
I am sure that will affect our grades because non of us voice out any questions.
Biology should be fun.
Seriously.

And as for maths.
We have no clue at all.
It was about gradients.
There was a big question mark shown on top of my head and I know it's clearly shown on my face.
I didn't contribute much on the powerpoint and our presentation are as plain as a white sheet of paper.
Well, not really.
There's a few slides which have 1 big word in the middle on the slide and that's it.
We were the 1st team to present because there is an advantage to be the 1st.

Im sure we won't score well on that either.
Seriously, if faci gave us C for maths, It is out of sympathy.
Because C is equivalent to Good.
Yeah.. Believe it or not.

PS: Im worried.

-Erfa

Disaster started to emerge.

2010-04-22T12:54:00.002+08:00

God, help me.
I cannot believe we actually have to learn and solve those gradient shit!
Urgh!
I swear I don't know how to go about to do it.
I have not been complaining about gradient or even look at it for 3 years now.
Even when I was in secondary school, I always avoid and skipped that questions!
Graphs!
Like we so don't need that lah!
Now you know why I flunged my maths?
Algebra was ok..
Why this shit?!

I do not wanna go university.
I do not need this complicated stuff to 'spice' up my life.

Yesterday was science.
The subject was ok. It's the faci.
Today, faci was ok.
But the subject and my understanding sucks big time!

Im not worried about the presentation..
Im just damn worried about the UT in weeks to come!
I cannot afford to fail maths again!

I cannot afford to retain!
Can I just skip to 2nd year and get to my course straight?
No matter how complicated the sentence, I rather have that compared to this.
Seriously.

PS: Shoot. Im in trouble already.

-Erfa

Things went smoothly until today

2010-04-21T14:39:00.005+08:00

This is exactly what we felt today.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

and confused

and -----------______________________-------------"

The faci is new.

Although she's been here for quite some time,

Today is her 1st day being a faci.

& we just have to be the victim.

It ok if she doesn't even know how to connect her laptop to the projector.

It's ok if she's darn blurr..

It's ok if she don't even know how to upload the important things to make the lesson going to the leo system.

The problem is,

She's not even flexible at all!

She ask questions like she taught us something today.

She ask like as if we are the one who didn't listen.

When even until now, she haven't even gone through the worksheet!

She managed to upload the stuff on leo only at 1.20pm and we actually have to upload things before 1.30!

Seriously, she shouldn't put any high espectation and ask so much from us because every one of us just google the imformations and refer to other classes,

when she was the one who's supposed to be giving us or discussing certain things with us!

Instead, she starts with "Oh I cannot connect to the projector"

and we only start our so call lesson at 10am!

Already wasted 1 and half hour!

WTH is that?!

It's alright if she's flexible enough to go through the worksheet and go easy on us for the ques and ans.

But, she didn't we only know the infor based on what we googled.

Which is the same as doing our own research and have no one to turn to.

Yeah she tried.

But we tried too.

So why not give us all straight A?

Oh whatever.

PS: Time wasted

-Erfa

1st result

2010-04-17T01:34:00.003+08:00

School's great.

Friends can communicate.

Love improved.

Bottom line,

I love my life.

Until now, I do not have any idea to why people can contribute to all the negative thoughts about RP.

I love the way the system work.

ITE taught us about speaking up, presentations and all.

In RP, I just have to polish up on all those things and get them done in a shorter time which is 1-2 hour rather than days.

It's wierd when we all felt that time flies very fast when we are in class.

They believe that it's better to understand what we're learning rather than cramp everything in one go.

I agreed.

It's not worth memorising if at the end of the day, we forgot 90% of it.

Oh wells..

I love everything that's happening in my life.

Alhamdulillah.

PS: Jangan ada cinta lain.

-Erfa

The real 1st day

2010-04-15T18:32:00.003+08:00

Nervous? Nope.
Scared? Nope.
Lazy? Nope.
Sleepy? Yes!

1st wasn't like any typical 1st day that I have experienced so far.
I could just say that they've succeeded in making me feel comfortable.
Everything was great.
Everyone can communicate.
I have not lost my way so far.
Thank God for that!

This year's gonna be quite general.
So.. I think it's ok.
Hopefully gonna continue to be ok until the real deal.
Even the real module, I hope it's gonna be alright.

For the 1st time, time flies so fast when we are studying.
It wasn't draggy.
So my 1st impression was and still is that I made the right decision of aiming this polytechnic from the very start.

Ps: Everything went smoothly so far

-Erfa

1st day!

2010-04-12T20:49:00.001+08:00

New school, new people, new course, new environment, new expectations and the list goes on..
But the most important thing is..
NEW LAPPY!
Heh heh HEH..!

Love it bebeh!

Today was tiring.
Damn tiring..!
2 more days of orientation to go!
Can do this..
I can!

Well.. That is all for now..
Will blog again soon!
<3

PS: Nervous!

-Erfa

Suffer for better result

2010-04-08T13:27:00.002+08:00

Yeap.. Definitely worth suffering.

Aaaaanyway..!
School is starting bellybelly soonnnnnnnn!
Ive just bought a few things that cost a bomb to me!
Gosh. May be even more broke den usual!
& mum's not helping but tempt me instead!
But not too worry.. I draw my own limit, so I know when to stop!
:D

Update?!
New piercing!!
Yummeh!
No lah. Nothing new.. Around the same spot. Just added one more..
Now I got 2 on one nose.
Heh Heh.

No more fakes, bronze or steel accesories..
Either real, plastics or wood.
So holla plastics and wood!
GOsh this sucks.
Real one? Dream on!
I just find it a waste to buy real earrings.
They lack of creativity!
Bought the fakes for nothing! Didn't even get the chance to use it even once.
Darn~!

I realised I have to buy more nice T-shirts and pants and cool clothes.
The one that I have just waiting to be thrown away!
But maybe not now.
Im going school. Not work.
So have to get my priority right.

-Erfa

Messed up.

2010-03-26T17:22:00.002+08:00

I was already unhappy about the management.
So many things in my mind.
So many things to plan. To be done.

Apart from the management chaos,
I messed up my day..

Woke up with certain that lesson will be on next fri..
Turned out to be true la mum..
It is THIS fri!
Hhahaa!
Instructor's wife called.
Rushed down.
Was distrated upon receiving a call telling me that Zura left the store key in the store itself and she's outside.
Oh gosh.
There is no way for me to get to lesson on time if i were to go to the store 1st.
While she's calling other full timers,
I was so distracted that I took the wrong train!
I actually took the train to work instead of lesson!!!
Subconciously!
Until I reached yio chu kang then I realised that 1st, im damn late,
2nd, Im so far away from the destination that I supposed to be!
Was lucky he waited.
Although it was only half-an-hour, I got the chance to be on the road.
WOOHOO!
It was mad fun for me lah of course.
Well, Still half an hour late for work. :X

UPDATE:
I Received $400 bucks from ITE!!!
Like they know I needed it.
:-D

Boyfriend been swallowing all his pride and that's good because he's the one at fault ok!
HUMPH!
Of course I forgave him..
Oh im sucha saint.
-.-"
Not.

For decades, Only now I got to work with sis.
:->

PS: OOooooOOOo Life is damnNNn GOOD~!

-Erfa

Bliss.

2010-03-24T21:34:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah...
After 3 years of waiting and trying, Wish granted..
I could have missed this golden opportunity if I gave up without trying.
So, thank you Maisarah.
You know I love you and we know we could not be separated.
:)

~If you didn't kept on telling me to try, I wouldn't even get to smell the opportunity~

Will be going back to school around April.
Have to say good bye to my customers, USQ staff and my full time job which pay so little.
Haha!
Sure I'll be your part timer just like I used to be.
That's for sure.
I still need pocket money man..

Of course im worried about a few things.
But I gotta stop being so negative and have faith in myself.
Think of the future.
I finally got what I wish for gettit?!
YEY!!!@
HEhehe...

Ok.. Now im excited..
YOu know.. All this mixed feelings..
Driving me crazay!

He wasn't excited and that kinda pull me down.
But he's slowly getting over it and accepting it.

Neighbour..
Made me feel damn guilty.
Just hope I will not hurt him in any way,
From the very 1st time.. Ive told him.
So I hope he realise what he's doing..
Thank you for the surprise tho.
Appreciate it.

PS: Im smiling now.

-Erfa

UPdates

2010-03-19T18:05:00.002+08:00

1 year plus..
My source of pocket money since I was still schooling..
It didn't even crossed my mind to join here as a full-timer.
Yes, I am comfortable with this place and the toys..
Just that the management and benefits doesn't attract me to apply for a full time position.
But still, I did after being offered..
And after considering.. maybe I should have joined here earlier rather than wasting my time working as a part timer here.
The pay wasn't that good and everything compared to the previoius offer..
But it is better to be compared to just $400.
I can always leave when I have found a better one.

~Oh well~

I love what I am doing right now..
Everything is good..
I have a new goal and journey in achieving that goal seems brighter each passing day.
I did well... Proven to be well and hopefully it will be a smooth-sailing for the rest of the test..

PS: Things are good. Better in a sense :-)

-Erfa

Alright.

2010-03-14T17:30:00.003+08:00

I may dread the past.
I may look back and scare myself..
Things may haunt me in my dreams..Or even when im wide awake.
I'll feel afraid.. I may get worried...
Being paranoid may not be something new to me..
I will do silly things just hoping to prove myself wrong..
But got killed everytime I did that because you failed.
Just like that.

But everything that been done, doing and am sure that will be happening in the future..
Just goes to show how much I wanted to make things right.
Not to just make things LOOK alright.
Want someone to remind me every now and then that everything is alright..
Someone really make things alright for me..
Not someone who make me feel even more insucure.

My wish list could go up to few hundred pages..
All I wish for is things to be alright.
Because it's not wound that we are talking about.
Its broken pieces that turned black & I believe that is the bleakest colour ever.
Nothing darker than that.
Black exist when Brightness is missing from it.
Hence the darkness.

-Erfa

Pretence

2010-02-27T17:59:00.002+08:00

You are taking a risk everytime you decide..
No right, no wrong..
Just Good or bad.
Life... Is like gambling..
You wouldn't know what will happen..
You just put yourself at stake.

Sometimes you can redeem..
Most times you just can't.
And even if you succeed to redeem it,
Its not as good as the money you've given just to gamble.

Crap

-Erfa

Distracted

2010-02-26T13:55:00.002+08:00

When someone just stepped into the shop when you're all alone..
Telling you about yourself.
Your past and present.
You got really distracted.
ASking for donation.
Telling you what to do after that just to improve your love life?!
Almost everything that he said was very close to the truth.
Claimed not to be a fortune teller.
Blablabla..

You ended up giving some money.
More than what you have left.
You still couldn't stop thinking about what happened and felt a little bit better after someone else came in and talks to you..

Would you still do what he told you to do?
About that being able to help you improve?
And said that's not Syirik?

I ignored. & just leave it to fate while im doing my best.
To be a better person.
Well of course not when someone poke their nose into my life!
Or is his presence gave me a hint about what to do to improve?

So should I do the 3 things?
Or just do something close to it?
God!

-Erfa

YES!

2010-02-14T14:45:00.002+08:00

Well at least there is still something that can make people feel proud of.
Alhamdulillah I must say.
I just keep on hoping that everything will continue going on smoothly until the end.
So no money is 'wasted',
I won't feel bad towards Ibu who religiously accompanied me everytime
and of course..
I would love to meet mum's goal.

Two burden is unloaded.
A few more to go!

Next up!

Yesterday chalet was ok.
Well, we are just guests.
& thankfully..
People does love our 1st tries.
Choc top Brownies w/almond and white choc corn flakes.
Nope.. mum doesn't want any orders..
& I couldn't decide on anything like that because the capital will be coming from her.
Although I would love to make a go on the white choc.
I'll persuade her if I really wanna do it.
For now, still busy searching for real full time job.

As for my lovely part time..
Still doing fine at ELC,
My 1st time opening shop alone will be on 23 Feb!
OOO my GUCCI!!

After doing my calculations..
All my saving will soon be gone!
& of course..
It won't be enough for everything that I've planned!
So yup.
Full time job is essential.

Ultra update:
I still LOVE pictures..
Just that it got lessen..
Guess im not that loud, fun and whatever like I used to.
:p

~Wondering.. Where is everyone~

-Erfa

I had a nightmare..

2010-02-08T17:35:00.002+08:00

A nightmare that felt so real.

NowNow..
Should it be the heart or the brain??
The pride or the pain?

Think before you react.
Nothing but so true.

Im outta here.

Feather Duster!!

2010-01-24T16:20:00.004+08:00

No.. Vacuum rather..

I know this blog is almost forgotten..

Actually.. It's not.

Anw..

Hello Diamondly~LIPSY~'s dear diary.

Heh.

Im pissed off, and failed to find myself a punching bag.

Got myself into trouble instead.

34 Joo Koon Road.

1st sent thousands of resume's like macam paham.

Den few minutes later, received a call..

I have no freaking idea which one of them called.

So I asked.

Blablabla..

Tomorrow is the interview and I have no idea how to get to this 34 joo koon road!

Worst, I sucks at maps.

PLUS I got myself into the marine stuff agian.

Gosh im doomed.

Got my friends to help.

Thanks guys.

hehehe..

Oh anyway..

Who's that?

2010-01-01T01:16:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year..!

Guess what.
It sucks for me on the eve itself..
I got myself a prefect present..
DIARRHOEA!
& when parents decided to allow me go countdown (with sis and all of course)
I just can't seem to wake up from sleep.
HOW GREAT IS THAT?!

Perfect timing right?!
All the negative thinking about new year came 1st before the adrenaline rushed through me.
Im excited for dunno what.
Well at least maybe.. Im not 20 anymore..
I don't prefer to be 20.
I missed the 2010 celebration, but I still have another 12 more months to do so..
Right?

Oh man.. Im hungry..
It's not helping when you kept on going to the toilet, throwing everything out again.
Eat throw. Eat throw. Eat throw.
My system will shut down sooner or later!
I just complained getting fatter each day back at work.
& now, my tummy says serve me right for complaining so much but didn't go exercise.
Boo Hoo!

Im dehydrated.

-ERFA

2009-12-31T03:14:00.002+08:00

Someone hurts us or we have a negative experience. Rather than brush away the pain, many of us get stuck emotionally, lick our wounds, allow ourselves to become afraid. Time passes and it becomes harder to move forward. Before we know it, years have passed. To become more fulfilled in the present and more excited about the future, many of us need to learn to let go of the past.

Step 1:
Journal your thoughts and feelings about how poorly certain people treated you or what events occurred in your life you felt were unfair. If you're not good with words, but enjoy art, then draw or paint your pain. Next, write or draw your intention to stop the unfairness dialog so you can start to let go of the past and move on.

STep 2:
Meditate daily. Clear your mind of the negative chatter and concentrate on how you can grow from the pain you have survived. Reflect on the positive aspects of moving on, such as how letting go of the past opens up room for better things to come into your life.

Step 3:
Choose an empty object, like a water bottle, butter container, anything you won't mind parting with. Place slips of paper inside on which you've scribbled the things you can't let go, like people, places, things, emotions, an unhealthy habit, whatever you feel is holding you back. Then, take the container out to your yard and bury it. From then on, whatever you wrote on the paper no longer exists and you can't hold on to what doesn't exist.

Step 4:
Work with a counselor or life coach to overcome obstacles or mental health issues that are keeping you from being able to address your problem areas. Armed with newfound knowledge shared with you by a professional, you can start looking forward to moving away from the past for good.

Resource:
http://www.ehow.com/how_2125845_let-past.html

PS: But the problem is, I can only managed to carry out the 1st step..
Worst, now.. Not anymore..

-Erfa

Merry Chirstmas

2009-12-26T17:36:00.002+08:00

Am I too late?
Guess that doesn't really matter..
Obviously not celebrating it now or ever..

Back to watching movies in theatre..
Reminding me of what I used to do which I hated most.
Watch a movie.
Just because it's hard to go out.

Spending too much to feel good is so unhealthy.
Weird..
Days passed with lesser words to be delivered.

-Erfa

2009-12-19T01:00:00.001+08:00

THIS IS DAMN SWEET!
And the ring is really shiny!!
*Jealous*
http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=1&p=8&v=268

2009-12-15T14:38:00.002+08:00

STROKE:Remember the 1st Three Letters....S.T.R.

Some die, others don't.
They end up in a helpless, hopeless condition instead.
It only takes a minute to read this...
A neurologist says that if he can get to a stroke victim within 3 hours he can totally reverse the effects of a stroke...totally.
He said the trick was getting a stroke recognized, diagnosed, and then getting the patient medically cared for within 3 hours, which is tough.
RECOGNIZING A STROKE

Thank God for the sense to remember the '3' steps, STR .
Read and Learn!
Sometimes symptoms of a stroke are difficult to identify.
Unfortunately, the lack of awareness spells disaster.
The stroke victim may suffer severe brain damage when people nearby fail to recognize the symptoms of a stroke.
Now doctors say a bystander can recognize a stroke by asking three simple questions:

*Ask the individual to SMILE.

*Ask the person to TALK and SPEAK A SIMPLE SENTENCE (Coherently)
(e. g. It is sunny out today)

*Ask him or her to RAISE BOTH ARMS.
If he or she has trouble with ANY ONE of these tasks, call emergency number immediately and describe the symptoms to the dispatcher.

New Sign of a Stroke -------- Stick out Your Tongue
NOTE: Another 'sign' of a stroke is this:

*Ask the person to 'stick' out his tongue.. If the tongue is 'crooked', if it goes to one side or the other,that is also an indication of a stroke.

PS: An email which I received few days ago.

2009-12-12T00:26:00.002+08:00

Am I going somewhere??

Well, except for the fact that Im back from Melaka since forever,
(pics will be updated soon)
Im earning some pocket money for now.
Well better than not doing anything.
Plus, I just have to stop increasing my butt size and start working for some cash as I need to spend it on one of the things that could be very important in the future.

Relex..
Im not getting married just yet.

Oh talking about marriage,
Aunty will be getting married tomorrow!
That is fast.
The last time we mentioned it was like 3 months ago..
Well I think.
And now it's tomorrow!!
Oh gosh, oh gosh!
Hope it will turn out well..

Proceed..
you know your opinion doesn't matter to me like at all.
Asking someone to just tell us some shit makes you look like a fool.
I mean it won't work.
So stop wasting your time.

And as for you miss Siti,
Shoo.
Move on already.

- giggle on the little things.

2009-12-02T01:56:00.003+08:00

"We were always meant to say goodbye"

Why must it always affect me so much everytime??
Although I kept on telling myself that all this happened for a reason and we should always look forward, I always managed to find myself excuses like..
What if the past is the the future as well?
What if this and that.

No choices is right or wrong right??
We just have to be happy with the choises we made.
There is always the 1st..
But that doesn't mean that the 1st will be the last as well does it?

Changed...
Others changed for the better..
What about myself??
.
.
Things packed.
2 more days to melaka.

Ps: Help.

2009-11-25T16:19:00.002+08:00

Happy 8th Birthday to Sayangku Sufi!

Based on our tradition..
12am, Cut cake.
That's all..
Only allowed to hold a party when we're 17 and 21.
Well, Based on my mum, it's sweet 17 instead of 16.
& 21 is of course, like everyone know, the should-hold-a-special-memorable-one
Me?
I don't really care..
Every year should be appreciated.
Well, Other than the fact you are a year older, (which sucks)
Hate the number big time,
You should be thankful that you have been given the health, love, chance and whatever to live that long.
.
Back to Sufi's 8th years birthday.
Syafiq reached home late.
Sufi was tired of waiting, after counting down himself,
mum still wanna wait for syafiq, Sufi threw his spec, put the blanket on himself and said
"Tidur sudah"
Hahahaha!
If I were him, I will take all the keys that could be found and hid it somewhere where anyone couldn't find.
So let bro stand outside whole night since he love to be outside and late for his own bro's birthday~!
.
To make it worst,
WITHOUT A PRESENT!
& was from SENTOSA!
& reached vivo at 7pm!
How can he not have time!
But... He was darn guilty alright.
Hahaha!
Of course, Im the 1st one to buy him a present.
That of course, I like.
Heh heh.
Whatever I buy, he sure like it what..
Who doesn't like presents tell me!
Plus!
I have good taste ok.........
Still im not his fav sister...
Wait!
That's only because he can't bully me...
Whatever.. I like it that way..
Very obedient whenever out with me..
Good.
So... Birthday cake was very cute.
It was simple cake cutting,
But the most important thing is that He was happy..
His wish?? Is to be clever when there's exam..
And when I asked "Only on exams?"
He said yes.
Ok..
Anything that makes you happy.
& pictures will soon be uploaded..
How soon??
Unsure.
Toodles!

Ps: 'Mungkin' hanya akan ada pada orang yg tidak bersyukur dengan apa yang ada di depan matanya- Papadom

2009-11-20T22:29:00.008+08:00

Ok...
Who doesn't love complaining..?
Everyone does ok!
So here I go..
.
.
Minah kata tak moh step gerek..
Meeeeeluat!
Im tired of donating my smiles for you.
So stop trying to refresh my memory that you exist in this world.
Since I no longer need you, Wait. I never needed you before. Just that you're an easy target.
You can't blame me for that.
Talam dua muka=Aku benci sekali.
.
I thought the wind blown the dust away..
But why are you still here??
The floor is occupied, so stop trying to fit in.
I hate to read something that I typed somewhere else in your profile.
I guess you live just to repeat what I have mentioned before.
But cummon.. Stop being annoying already.
.
& I won't die not working there.

Lama per tk jumper!

Head over heels.

Still doing it.

Been long.. Miss me yet?

Psst.. The guy beside me was darn skinny.

Oh gosh.. Seafood baked rice.. *salivating*

~!Good day!~

2009-11-13T13:48:00.002+08:00

Daddy It Hurts..

This is A TRUE STORY AND
IF YOU DON'T PASS THIS ON YOU DON'T HAVE A SOUL!!!
.
.

My name is Chris ,
I am three,
My eyes are swollen..
I cannot see.
.
I must be stupid,
I must be bad,
What else could have made,
My daddy so mad?
.
I wish I were better,
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy,
Would still want to hug me.
.
I can't do a wrong,
I can't speak at all,
Or else I'm locked up,
All day long.
.
When I'm awake,
I'm all alone,
The house is dark,
My folks aren't home.
.
When my mommy does come home,
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll just get,
One whipping tonight.
.
I just heard a car,
My daddy is back,
From Charlie's bar
.
I hear him curse,
My name is called ,
I press myself,
Against the wall.
.
I try to hide,
From his evil eyes,
I'm so afraid now,
I'm starting to cry.
.
He finds me weeping,
Calls me ugly words,
He says its my fault,
He suffers at work.
.
He slaps and hits me,
And yells at me more,
I finally get free,
And run to the door.
.
He's already locked it,
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me,
Against the hard wall.
.
I fall to the floor,
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues,
With more bad words spoken.
.
'I'm sorry!', I scream,
But it's now much to late,
His face has been twisted,
Into a unimaginable shape.
.
The hurt and the pain,
Again and again,
O please God, have mercy!
O please let it end!
.
And he finally stops,
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless,
Sprawled on the floor.
.
My name is Chris ,
I am three,
Tonight my daddy,
Murdered me.
.
And you can help,
Sickens me to the soul,
If you read this,
And don't pass it on.
.
I pray for your forgiveness,
You would have to be,
One heartless person,
Not to be affected,
By this Poem.
.
And because you ARE affected, Do something about it!
So all I ask you to do, Is pass this on!
IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE!
Post this as 'Daddy ... It hurts'
If you do not send this to everyone you know
Then you obviously don't care about child abuse.
I realize that this is an important situation.
At least 5 children each day from around the world die from child abuse!!!!
This happens across the board, no matter how much money they have or their ethnicity.
Please help.

2009-11-10T20:21:00.006+08:00

8th Nov..

A great short reunion..

6 hour plus was surprisingly too short for us to do anything..

Bowling plan were cancelled and majority doesn't wanna do pool.

Wendy is the only one who could play..

Haha!

Laughers could be heard from wlds to changi!hahahhaa!

How nice..

If only we could really travel together and spend the days with all 4 of us.

That will be a dream come true.

Looking at the discounts that Farhana could get for us..

Argh everyone was so excited..

But. Lets face it.

I could only dream.

Lazy..

Oh so lazyyy...

Did the housework sloww and just wait for the evening to roll around.

Pain in the throat.

News have yet to receive..

Waiting.. waiting.

PS: Not even a day without.. An addiction.

2009-11-05T17:21:00.009+08:00

It's been long (well for me) since i've last upload.
Thousands of things happened in just a day..
I was up there, and now im back down again.
Confused,
Is this the way it should be or just to make me realise how I feel about things?
I now know how I actually feels, but what is the right thing to do right now??
Clueless,
Aku berserah.

PS: Avoid making promises when you are in joy, Don't make reply when you are sad and Never take decisions when angry.. Think twice, Act wise.

I guess we all were wrong at times.

Enjoy:

2009-10-25T01:11:00.003+08:00

When someone ask you why you kept on loving someone who doesn't love you back
and that there is alot of fish in the water..
.
You don't go on stressing yourself accusing that you're not appreciating people that loves you..
Instead you should ask..
Just because it is also water, would you drink from the sea??
Because you wouldn't.
.
It should be clearly understood that love has no expiration date..
.
Hence the reason why some still holding on..
The reason why people still sits quietly and smile to themselves whenever they are reminded by whatever memories that is left behind.
.
Would you choose to keep your love for someone who is already dead
or someone that is right infront of you but you are so helpless, not knowing how he felt towards you anymore.
Or maybe he moved on himself..?
.
Well..
Life is so short..
Keep it simple.
Nothing is a burden if you chose not to look at it that way.
Because flaws is when you disappoint your strength.
.
But..
would you choose to go to the right where there is nothing left,
Or to the left where there is nothing right..
Which ever way you choose,
Embrace it with all your heart because at least...
There is still somewhere to go..
.
Because when nothing is left, you could make something outta nothing
and when nothing is right, you could do something to make it right.

PS: When it rains, people ask where did the sun go? Without realising, God gave us rainbow..

2009-10-23T20:25:00.002+08:00

Oh Gosh Oh Gosh!!
.
.
Watched New Moon trailor and watching it invites goosebumps!!
Excited..
Real Excited.
.
.
December??
Can't wait for december!
Heard Twilight saga, Feel Movie Theatre!
.
.

PS: Sounds like a plan!

2009-10-22T00:33:00.003+08:00

Another trip to Haig Court and another 2 thumbs up from the parents.
Well..
It wasn't really up to my expectation actually..
Dance not completed and there wasn't any real performance from the children.
But that was because they wasn't really interested in the whole dance thing..
Just the chorus part..
To think that was the only thing they were looking forward to.
& we have to go with the flow & observe how the children respond to everything.
Flexibility is very important when it comes to kids.
.
.
But as far as we got the 'well done' from the parents, it's a big relieve for me.
Plus they're calling us again the next time.
& im happy to be there again because they give tips!
Hahaha..
Or maybe because we include dance lesson as well..
Well, I don't really know about that.
What I know is..
We definately got more compared to the 1st one.
.
.
This time, the parents are really very supportive, kind, caring and really understanding..
Not demanding at all.
Just love working with them.
.
.
Opinion:
1) Kids became very hard to handle when their friends being very difficult. They just follow.
2) Kids will be less obedient and don't really care when they've already known you as the fun type of person.
3) Observe their responds, be flexible and react fast is very important.
4) Always do the 3 claps and 1 silent clap because it is cute and it does work.
5) Whistle and mic is important when it became too noisy.
6) Remind them about the prizes that they will be receiving to motivate them to participate.
7) Treasure Hunt is their ultimate favourite game-They will never get bored.
8) They could actually absorb the steps! - Never underestimate them!
9) They just wanna stick with you and hope they'll be your fav.

PS: Very good job Saiful.

2009-10-16T13:33:00.004+08:00

Why do I tend to think about the one whom I thought meant almost nothing in my life?

Should I admit that I never appreciate good things that is around me?

& when it's not there, and when my mind wasn't occupied with anything else,

i'll think about the things that I thought wasn't worth thinking at all.

Am I deceiving myself, by saying it's not at all important to me?

PS: I should just get myself a good job with good pay.

2009-10-14T01:55:00.003+08:00

My love for Christ Angel lessen.
WHAT?!
I just find him cool and charming..
You know.. The way he carry himself.
YUM!
.
Maybe Im a lil' bit slower than anyone else..
Thousands may have talked about this,
But hell I still wanna post this.
.
The previous episode was soo.....
Err ok... ITs..
All about boobs, being naked and stuff!
GOSH!
I mean the previousprevious was when he kissed this girl when he supposed to kiss only me!
Heh.
OH cummon.. Can't I even....?
OK...
.
Before that, I think it's cool when he make the jeans looks normal(w/o hole)
WHen actually there is!
Well this girl was wearing a jeans with holes. Yah. so there's no more holes. OK stop.
.
He's able to take out the bra that this girls are wearing by just pulling the bra from the center part of the bra.
Of course when THE GIRLS ARE ACTUALLY WEARING THEM! Underneath their dress.
ANd one of them actually don't mind pulling down the dress or whatever you call that to show that it's real. (yes, boobs actually popped out!)
.
Another one was..
He actually hypnotised everyone (of course with their consent) by the poolside.
He went as far as to ask them to take out whatever they're wearing.
Well, they said that..
The people that were hypnotised will not do anything that they really didn't want to.
So if the people did took out everything, they actually thought that they will look good NAKED!
I wonder..
Yes, everyone there eventually took out everything.
.
Third is!
He's able to increase the SIZE of your BOOBS!
You just have to concentrate on the blood flow and muscle of your boobs, he will help with his fingertips but will not be touching it.
...
Imagine him staring at your boobies!
0.0
In front of everyone,
IN front of the camera.
And you actually have to tell people that you feel something is happening.
.

PS: I've just cut half the portion of my hair.. Can't think of any reaction, so just laughed.Pfft.

2009-10-11T01:55:00.005+08:00

1st job given by The Party Room:

With mathiew, i forgot her name , munmun, amanda, angeline

What a Saturday..

Plan to go for a swim was cancelled.
Off to Ais house, wait for her to get ready and vroom to Haig Court.
Gosh.. That was my 1st time ever!
I was really scared and didn't have any confidence I swear!
But.
It turned out ok..
Except for the fact that she went to the wrong exit and I was unable to help much.
Felt bad..
Well... Im always the baby and depend on the person in front..
But... Ill learn.
I've tried and I'll improve..
.
Games and cake cutting were organised.
Well that's the only thing that should be done other than dinner.
Parents were satisfied..
Everyone's happy,
WE're drained.
Money received,
Vroom to goodsman..
TO EAT!
Awesome house with Yummy food!
What more could you ask for?
People there are friendly.
(Sheesh.. did the stupidest thing ever!~haha~)
.
Next time beep me again aite Ais?!
Thanks for the opportunity..!
.
NExt, looking forward to relieving!

2009-10-08T13:07:00.003+08:00

Stop, breathe, smile, face that shit & observe how they fall on the face.

It's only normal for others to do that to cover the shits they have created..
But to let others read and it got passed around,
especially when I got to know that myself, is definitely uncool.
To make it worst, pretending to be:
'Oh what have I done to deserve this'
I would say:
"FUck.. It's ok.. I will go through this with you and let you get what you really deserves"
and that of course. Worst.
.
Religious teachers always say that it is not a good thing to make innocent people look bad..
Fitnah or... cerita yang dah diubah-suai?
.
I would say You bukak topic, I sambungkan dan isi tempat yg kosong..

Tk suka la cerita yg dah di-edit dan yg tk sempurna..
.
I boley diam, I diam.. I tk boley diam, I cakap..
Org tk kacau, I tk kacau.. Org sentuh, I M-E-N-G-A-M-U-K

Gosh this post is disgusting..
No..Wait. That particular person is damn disgusting..
What's her name again??
Faggot.

Let's start this game!

2009-10-07T20:35:00.008+08:00

From Hafiz:

2009-10-06T00:41:00.005+08:00

From Shara & Hasyimah: